JOURNAL: what a difference a month makes

I’ve been trying to write this post since March ended but honestly, I have been too stressed to.

I started off March catching up with friends for breakfast, lunch and dinner, only to have the month end with us in isolation.

My work has closed all offices indefinitely, Bella’s school has been shut and as I sit down to write this, I am stressed.  I don’t mind the being at home.  I love my home and we’re fortunate that we are in such a privileged position but that doesn’t mean I don’t have my own personal difficulties.  I cried in front of my dad for the first time in years the other night…and freaked him and the rest of my family out.  FYI – I am not a crier.

I thought that acknowledging you were stressed was meant to help alleviate those feelings but it didn’t.  Instead it made me dwell on the fact that I was stressed.  So now I’ve made myself a deal.  I will not dwell on the fact that I am stressed.  I will do what I’m good at and push through.

So here we go – some things I loved from last month:

  1. First and foremost is obviously the freedom to see family and friends.  I hadn’t realised how much we not only enjoyed time with our friends but also how much we relied on it.  I miss them!
  2. Co-parenting.  Ain’t nothing like an outing to your other parent’s home during iso.  It gives both Bella’s father and I a break but also breaks up Bella’s day and gives her new people to interact with and in a different environment.
  3. My therapist.  I don’t think I’ve ever touched on this before but I regularly see a psychologist (at least I think that’s her official title – no disrespect intended).  I’ve been seeing her monthly for about two years now and I will never stop.  If there’s ever a time to be taking care of your mental health, it’s now and I cannot recommend it enough.  I think it should be a part of absolutely everyone’s routine – mind, body and soul.

And what I could do without –

  1. Uncertainty.  I know I could deal with isolation a lot more with an end date.  Not knowing when things will return to a more normal state is crushing me.

2 thoughts on “JOURNAL: what a difference a month makes

  1. Don’t let these unprecedented times start crushing you Jessica. It’s hard to process all this. God or some higher power you believe in definitely has better plans for all of us.

    Let’s take it step by step. Enjoy what life is throwing at you and you’ll be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel, if not today, tomorrow for sure.

    Take care 🙂

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